Today I read the words: “Homeschooling is not just about education. It restores a family.”

The one year that we did a full year at public school did a number on me. I became the mom I swore I would never be: the mom that yells at my children. Every. Single. Day.

Every morning was miserable. The kids never wanted to wake up- the yelling would begin. Most mornings they took so long getting up & ready that they missed breakfast so that they wouldn’t miss the bus that we had to pack everyone up to drive to so that we wouldn’t have to sit in the dreaded shit-show of a carpool line with a car-full of screaming infants & toddlers who are hungry and tired. Then drop off little sister at preschool 30 minutes later. Then pick her up 2 hours later. Then finally get the babies down for a nap, only to abruptly wake them up to go back once again to pick up big sister. Everyone tired & cranky, constantly overwhelmed and on edge.

Evenings were just as miserable. Fight about homework, fight about getting ready for the next day, fight about bedtime which was way too early because I knew the 5 am fights would start all over again in the morning. I felt more free in jail than I did in this routine.

I began hating motherhood. It didn’t help hearing all the other moms “joking” about how much they hated spending time with their kids, how “unfair” it was how long winter break or summer break were. How they “could never” spend all day with their kid. At least I felt “normal” since all of the families also agreed that they began their day the same – with yelling and high levels of stress. Why is this a thing?!

I knew something had to change. This was literally worse than jail in my eyes. I refused to continue living like this- it wasn’t normal or healthy.

I pulled my kids out of school and began restoring our family. We have peace in our home again. Motherhood is the greatest part of my life again & brings me the most happiness again. I get to truly know my kids and watch them persue their passions every day. Our family has a deep connection, we learn alongside each other, and we are happiest together – free from society ❤️

Until next time ♡ Mama Morozov